A Little Something I Made-3

What can one do in the middle of the night.....When struck with insomnia...And not to mention-Boredom?!!

PAINT,DUDE,PAINT! 

:D

A Great Perhaps!

"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both"

-Robert Frost

Everyone,at some point of their lives,face such a situation.

Okay maybe not EXACTLY the same,but similar.

It's nerve wracking to take responsibility and make life decisions at times. And the fact that the rest of your life depends on this one choice of your's,does not make the task any easier.

You can compare it to a balloon,you know. 

You have all these plans,and stuff you think and dream of doing...things you want to achieve...they all add up to become this one giant balloon!!

But....the choice and the path you choose can make a difference to the state of that big balloon!
At times,the choice you make is like a sharp pin which can burst the balloon,in a second!
Sometimes your choice simply makes a tiny hole in the balloon.....and with time,your dreams and aspirations all deflate..

On a more delightful note though,the thing you choose can maybe even enable that balloon to fly high,like a hot air balloon..!!

But then...how do you know what to do?! What's the correct way to go?

Maybe there is no 'right' or 'wrong' way.....

It's scary and exciting taking charge of your life.

There was the time when you were a care-free kid,running around your home,knocking over pots and pans...not a care in the world!

And then there's now: 

The present you,who is-
a)Freaked out.

b)Unaware of the future.

c)Suddenly dreading leaving the so called 'cocoon' you've been existing in. 

d)Afraid of oblivion.

e)Amazingly excited and ecstatic to see what lies in store for you anyway!

There's is something about the unknown that makes you want to know about it. 

None of us knows where we will be or what we will be doing 5 years or 10 years down the line....Heck,i ain't even sure of what i will be eating for lunch tomorrow! 

But i guess that's what philosophers call 'mystery of life' ...or some shit like that.

John Green,in one of his books (Looking For Alaska),mentioned something about a "Great Perhaps"

I like that theory.

I mean yeah,maybe we all are expecting some great possibility for ourselves.

We are uncertain of what it might be....

We are not sure if it will be good,or bad....

Or whether it will be worth the effort,or a total bust.....

But we still hang on to the balloon.....The balloon of our dreams and aspirations...

For all you out there,who like me,feel like a complete  idiot for not having a plan in life...or those who are afraid and apprehensive to take up careers and jobs,for whatever reason......

Listen

You DO NOT want to regret or question your choice later in life.

It will be way too late by then.

So just go for it!!

Go with your gut instinct!

I guess your gut is more sensible than your heart in these matters....

You know how people say 'listen to your heart?

Yeah,well...

COMMONSENSE-FACT-ALERT!!!! 

The heart can't talk, dud heads ! (Not even if you use a stethoscope)

So,i guess,good luck with what lies ahead....

Step out into the Great Unknown and find yourself a Great Perhaps!

Till next time...Adios! :)

A Retrospect

People are not really mean
They are not all bad
If that is what most see in them,
That is just sad

People are not cruel
They  are not all insensitive
Try giving people more than just a judgemental glance
Try giving them a chance

People don't lie to hurt
Not intentionally most of the time
People are kinda clueless
That ain't such a crime

People can be hard to comprehend
In fact,you try and see
People are nothing different
Than you and me .

-RMDelirious

Just Words...

 Justice......It's overrated.

People get kidnapped,murdered,assaulted,raped.....the list goes on...and on.....

They say convicting the people responsible for the crime,brings about justice for the victims?Does it really?

Think about the dead,murdered ones.....do they get their life back?
Leave alone the dead,even the victims still alive,become close to zombies.
Hardly a few recover,if ever.
And they say 'justice has been given!'

What about the cases in which no one is given any punishment as such for their deed??

The 16th December,2012 rape case in India...take that for instance...the 17 year old juvenile walks free,cause he is apparently,well,small.
He didn't consider that when he hurt the girl.He didn't consider that when he left her to die,when he raped her,when he pulled out her intestines!
Then why is he considered a minor and inflicted with the most minimum penalty imaginable??
Psychiatric help was provided to him......as if that will make him mend his ways.

What about the oh so famous 'JACK THE RIPPER'?
He killed multiple women!Brutally!
And was never ever caught.
He himself must've died a natural death.Is that justice for all of his victims?
 

The Gilgo Killer.He killed around 14 people and was even involved in sex trade over around 15 years.
He was never identified.
The people he murdered,their bodily remains,yes..just remains,were found in various different parts of nassau county.
And that is just the record of the bodies that were somehow found.What about the ones which never were.
 

The horrible story of junko furuta...
A normal Japanese school girl.........went to school one day....never to return back home.
The story which follows of what she suffered is sick.The way she was mistreated,assaulted,raped........
One might get goosebumps reading about the case.
 The boys who kidnapped her, hung Junko from the ceiling and literally used her as a punching bag until her damaged internal organs made blood run from her mouth. The abuse had destroyed her bodily systems Then they taunted her with a candle flame, and finally doused her legs in lighter fluid and set her on fire, as punishment for trying to run away.They dropped weights on her body. They burned her with cigarettes. They stuck lit fireworks in her mouth, ears and watched them explode. They shoved still-hot light bulbs in her private organs. The boys starved her—when they weren’t forcing her to eat cockroaches and drink her own urine.
Junko soon died.The thugs who’d abducted her hid her corpse in a 55-gallon drum, filled it with concrete, and left it in an empty factory lot in Koto, a waterfront area just east of Tokyo’s center .
It was a year before the body was even found......

Arushi talwar murder case.
13 year old found murdered in her bedroom,Throat slit.The suspicion straight away fell on the servant,who himself was soon found dead.
So what was the protocol that followed?The parents would have killed both of them.
Without concrete proof or evidence.....just at face value,the parents convicted of murder of two people,one being their very own teenage daughter! Who was in fact about to turn 14 just two days after.The poor couple is almost helpless.Their sole daughter dead and defamed.And they can't do anything to  clear her name or their own as a matter of fact.

Jessica Lal murder case.
She was simply bar tending at a private celebrity event where she was shot was simply no fault as such of her own.
The witnesses ,though many,refused to testify against the probable killer out of fear.
Out of danger for their own life.Out of ,what i think to an extent,selfishness.Even people who knew her did not want to risk their own lives,as the so called killer was a man of status.

What about school shootouts?
Sandy hook elementary,Columbine high school massacre,Chardon high school shooting, Virginia Tech massacre..........These are just a few.
Kids were killed,so were teachers in every one of these shootings.
That too for no real reason.
Yes the killers were convicted....But what about the families??
The young children...who hadn't even seen the World properly yet....
They were just starting out as humans.....

 I could go on and on....

Write stories upon stories...recite incidences upon incidences...

But the most pathetic part?Even i can't do anything about it,no matter how badly i want to.

That is the worse part.
Unable to change things that HAVE to change.

People might say and write about it.....May preach about it......May put forth their regret and condolences......

But up to what good is that?

Cause after all...words are just words...even if you mean what you say.....

OBLIVION

Nobody knows what lies ahead
Not even fortune tellers or soothsayers.
No one knows what will happen to them
Not even the powerful kings and rulers

We all are unaware and uncertain,
Of what lies in store for us.
We wonder if our lives would be good or bad...
Maybe it'll be happy?!...Hopefully not sad!

Forget tomorrow or day after..
Even the rest of today is a mystery!
The future awaits us......
Soon to become our history....

What would you choose though,
If you were indeed given a choice?
A choice between the obvious....
Oblivion or omniscience?

                         

Till next time...adios :)

Little Things That Matter

Getting an unexpected call,

Finally,being able to shoot hoops at basketball!

Scoring the highest score on a video game,

Hearing an infant say your name!

Finding money in your old jean pocket,

Making last minute plans to go shopping to the market!

Getting a good grade on a test you expected to fail,

The joy of knowing the shoes you wanted,are finally on SALE!

Singing in the shower,

Dreaming of visiting the Eiffel Tower

Having fun being home alone,

On a hot summer day,eating an ice-cream cone!

Finally getting to see the movie you were dying to see,

Not to forget,after hours of controlling,the relief of finding a place to pee!!

Getting mobile network in isolated places,

The first time you tied your own shoe laces!

Passing chits in class while the teacher teaches,

Oh the thrill of going to beaches!

Times when you got high on nothing but water!
Times when you tried to talk in various accents, including hermoine's from harry potter  :P (It's leviosa not leviosar )

Little things do matter

These are memories you hold,that nobody can possibly shatter

Memories that overwhelm you and make you cry

Memories that make you laugh and those that make you sigh..........

I Wonder Why...

Suicide......

Each one of us will have varying opinions about the above....Some may say that people who commit suicide are cowards.....Some agree with the theory of each suicide victim being somewhat mentally unstable....Some even compare suicide to murder...murder of one's own self.....



Several suicide cases have been bought into our notice...
Every year, almost one million people die from suicide; a "global" mortality rate of 16 per 100,000, or one death every 40 seconds...In the last 45 years suicide rates have increased by 60% worldwide....In fact...On average a suicide occurs every 17 minutes!
Suicide happens to be the 5th leading cause of death for young people aged 5-14....and second leading cause of death among college students...
Apart from this...There are approximately 750,000 suicide attempts each year.
Among the methods used....firearms are the most common....Followed by hanging,strangulation,suffocation,drowning,poisons.....even methods such as burning oneself...alive.
A sad statistics chart indeed.....




However.....Ever wondered what leads people to commit suicide?
What must be going on in their minds as they actually take their own lives?
What pushes them to take such a drastic step?



Various psychologists,psychiatrists...and other people dealing with humans......have put forward possible steps that leads a person to commit suicide......
They are....

1) Severe disappointment.
 First, you experience severe disappointment. You set your standards, and your circumstances fall far below those expectations. Maybe it’s that your expectations were too high; maybe it’s that you’re just going through a lot of setbacks in your life. Regardless, you’re in the midst of severe disappointment. 

2) Self-blame.
You blame yourself for all of the disappointment in your life. As a result of your miserable circumstances, you begin to “demonize” yourself, heaping the blame on your own shoulders. Part of this demonization means developing a deep hate for yourself, characterized by low self-esteem and self-worth. 

3) Self-absorption.
You become entirely obsessed with your own inability to measure up to the standards that you have set up. You turn inward, shutting out those around you. When you face the pressure to commit suicide, your battle is not against the people in your life who have hurt you; it is against your perceptions of yourself.

4) Depression and anxiety.
Here, you experience “negative affect,” meaning that you experience negative emotions related to your disappointment. Severe depression or a sense of anxiety sets in. We use others’ standards to compare ourselves, and we experience deep anxiety when we fail to meet those expectations. This anxiety, too, can translate into suicidal thoughts.

5) Cognitive deconstruction.
In this phase, your brain breaks down your life into easy-to-understand thoughts. This step of suicide involves an “escape from meaningful thought,”. This is why suicide is so dangerous to contemplate—thinking about the big questions only reminds you of your depression, and so you enter a sort of “emotional deadness” instead. This deadness is a big part of how suicide progresses. 
6) Disinhibition
Your brain has turned off “deep” thoughts about how your death would affect those you love or how suicide may be “wrong,” your brain has finally accepted that to commit suicide may be your best escape from depression


I personally am not satisfied with the explanations given by people about suicide....
I mean,try putting yourself in the shoes of a person who is actually on the verge of  committing suicide.......
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....Do you feel pressurized?...or depressed??or lost..?Do you feel that life is simply like a horrible nightmare and you don't want to live it anymore??Are you able to understand why....?

Are you able to empathize with the hypothetical person in the scenario??

It's hard right?
It's like a mystery in itself.....a deep ...unsettling mystery........ 

Here is something that Susanna Kaysen wrote......

“Why did she do it? Nobody dared to ask. Because - what courage! Who had the courage to burn herself? Twenty aspirin, a little slit alongside the veins of the arm, maybe even a bad half hour standing on a roof: We've all had those. And somewhat more dangerous things, like putting a gun in your mouth. But you put it there, you taste it, it's cold and greasy, your finger is on the trigger, and you find that a whole world lies between this moment and the moment you've been planning, when you'll pull the trigger. That world defeats you. You put the gun back in the drawer. You'll have to find another way.

What was that moment like for her? The moment she lit the match. Had she already tried roofs and guns and aspirins? Or was it just an inspiration?

I had an inspiration once. I woke up one morning and I knew that today I had to swallow fifty aspirin. It was my task: my job for the day. I lined them up on my desk and took them one by one, counting. But it's not the same as what she did. I could have stopped, at ten, or at thirty. And I could have done what I did do, which was go onto the street and faint. Fifty aspirin is a lot of aspirin, but going onto the street and fainting is like putting the gun back in the drawer.

She lit the match.” 



What do you think??Is suicide the fault of the  person committing it...or is the situation,surroundings and people around to be blamed?What's your take on the subject....?

Well...I guess people like these just need some support...and hope...
In case you do do happen to know someone like this.....don't cease to help them....
If you can save a life...then why not do so?

And in case there is anyone reading this...who actually found suicide compelling and was going to go forward with it...........DON'T!
Life may seem bad,unfair...unpleasant......weird........But guess what?You aint the only one who thinks that way .....everyone feels so at some point or the other....escaping from troubles once and for all is no answer to your problems......I hope you realise that....... :)



―I'll end with a quote by  Lucius Annaeus Seneca ......

“Sometimes even to live is an act of courage.” 


Till next time......Adios...... :)